A Loner

I can believe I have turned in to a person I don't know.. is that why I have no friends anymore.. I want to be friends with people, i want to go out and mingle and be the carefree soul i was but why am i losing it.

Am i trying too hard?

My Challenge

My challenge comes in the name of "Kenric" whoes such a sweet boy and oh so very nasty when he does not get his way.

Over the years of growing up I made sisters of the girl friends I knew and as I sit in this strange country I realize of my loss. Some of them stick around for a while and others just disappear after a while.And the other few are just too busy. I miss talking to people, infact I feel my life has come to a stand still like a full stop after I moved away from home.

My mind

My minds in turmoil, I just don't understand what's going on right now, and again I believe in that supreme force because things keep falling in to place most of the time when I think they won't.

I am pretty much disturbed by http://www.ajc.com/news/jailhouse-interview-i-did-735765.html
My condolences with his family, I hate to think what goes through the mind of the mother, it's the baby she helped grow in to a young life that was stomped out by these criminals. I don't know what it takes lord to stop people like this.

My humble pray my children oh Lord safely keep as each day I rest on the bed of dreams

There's only so much that I can pack into one day and I am yet to accept that fact. I just try too much that I forget to enjoy.. :-)
We headed to Hillcrest Apple Orchards today, It was a lovely day we had fun besides the fact that we could not actually get to pick the apples. The kids had fun on the slides and in the petting zoo it was lovely and we had a awesome time.
Shopping for kenrics bday and back home.. now I am totally pooped.

It's funny how the kids are so different.. both look so much alike but are worlds different.

Hubby's cooking some mouth watering chicken.

I am loving the evening.

I always used to think that old people were very silly when they said they did not get sleep any more.. but as I have grown older I have noticed that I am up in the wee hours of the morning and sleep later each passing year... It being a need earlier and slowly becoming a habit.. It's funny how each demanding phase in life teaches us to change our habits.

So here I am trying to make some fancy pancakes for breakfast and watching my mom feed kenric his breakfast, It's lovely to see him form his first words .. like water is oohter .. food is mmmmmammm.

I had one of the best days in my recent days. shopping, children activities, bday party and a fabulous evening.

October 22 2010

I have done this before and have been so unsuccessful but life has always taught me not to give up and so here's my attempt again.

It's one of those friday's where you just want the weekend to just come in faster. I just don't know why is it so difficult to plan a meal for a 2 year old. So he ends up getting boiled eggs and rice. That's it. Morning rush .. wonderful traffic and I sitting in my chair at work

It's 3:30 and hubby's here so we go and check out this new day care for my baby.. only you know he is not a baby anymore. He is turning in to this handsome little toddler.

My heart breaks at the fact that I won't have a baby in my house anymore just three men, never thought i would be so sad. How does one explain the burst of emotions in my heart. And one question inn my mind.. will I remember these memories always will i remember dates?

Sigh!!!!